Following on from last weeks blog, I’ve had a sit down to think about what it is I want. For ages, I have wanted a job working from home so I could spend quality time with my girls. I have two jobs working from home but I feel like I’m spending all my time working and then not actually spending any quality time with the girls. I have been feeling like I don’t have the time to pause and think. I do like the work I do but just need more time to do it.
Tag: Working from home
There’s a lot happening at the moment and I don’t know exactly what it is that I want. I think I would like a permanent job but even that doesn’t guarantee a lifetime of work and stability. I think I want my eldest daughter to go to a regular school and then you hear of horror stories and so I change my mind and I want her to stay at the private school which we can’t really afford.
There’s so many online businesses and courses going around that I want to do but I’m not sure why and what’s the point. For now I’m going to stick to my accounting, blogging and yoga and looking after my girls. Cooking, beauty, crafts, reiki etc. can wait. The online money making schemes which seem to take your money first without even guaranteeing you’ll get any money back in return seems to good to be true. Then there’s the ultimate blog which keeps telling you to slow down and enjoy life. How can you fit everything in and still be happy, healthy and rich? I guess ultimately, that is what everyone wants, to be happy, healthy and rich.
I’m not 100% sure if nicheing is even a word but that is what I think I should be doing. I’ve been reading lots of posts and articles about how you should have a niche and then focus all your writing, work, if you have anything to sell on that. There’s also lots of lists about the things you could niche or sell online. So I’ve been thinking about what I could niche about in my blog and here’s my list:
I’ve been thinking about what theme to write about on this week’s blog. Maybe my kids as it’s summer holidays and I decided to keep the girls home for the week. Neither of them went to nursery, so all week I’ve been getting up without an alarm clock which has been so nice! But trying to work with them at home has been a bit of a nightmare. How much snacks do they need and how do they get crumbs everywhere?
Then I thought about writing about how stressful work is and how I wish I could drop one of the contracts so I would have more time to spend with the girls and chill out a bit but I do like the work. They’re both a bit different. I earn the same with both of them and I don’t know which one I would drop. I do hate working into the evening after the girls are asleep so I will need to work on that. Plus all the school holidays, what will I do with them when I’m still working? And how about homework?
Then just about an hour ago I thought, I’m thinking about this all wrong. I’m worried about work, worried about not spending enough time with the girls, not having enough time to do everything and relax. I’m wishing I had a different job where I can just do term time or just work half a year. The more I worry or think about the bad things that could happen, the more I might be drawing the bad things towards me. Also, I have reiki, so I can wish good luck on my work and prayer for things to work out.
From Yoga Girl by Rachel Brathen
I’ve got 5 more classes left on my Bikram yoga pass and I’ve been fighting and fighting and fighting with myself, with what I want, with what I can do and how to fit everything in but I’ve come to the decision that this is the end. For now.
I took my first class in 2009 in Leicester with my husband and I have been an addict ever since. On our first class, we put our mats right next to the mirrors as we thought that was the back of the class! After getting used to the shock of the heat, I remember feeling at peace and being so calm with the first breathing exercise and then being able to continue with the rest of the class so well. I’ve had two breaks since 2009, when I had both my daughters. Before then, we had been trying for children but had been unsuccessful. However, within 3 months of starting Bikram yoga I became pregnant. Coincidence? Maybe? But I am convinced that there is some good in Bikram yoga that no other form of exercise I have done has.
This September, after doing yoga for the longest stint yet of 2 years, I’m going to have to take a big break when my oldest daughter starts school. Maybe if I was so dedicated I could find time but with the school runs, the early morning yoga is out and evening yoga depends a lot on work. After having my second daughter I suffered a lot from backaches and just general aches. The backaches still comes and goes but definitely feels better after Bikram yoga. The general aches have more or less disappeared. The peace I felt in my first classes is elusive but I do feel a lot calmer and happier after a class even if it’s for a short time.
Yoga in general has always been a big part of my life and I do intend to carry on with yoga at home. But for now and to all the Bikram yogis:
“That stress you’ve placed upon your shoulders is going to crush you. Get rid of it. You don’t need to be perfect. You don’t need to have it all together. You don’t need to please everyone. Place that heavy burden on the ground. Throw it out into the sea. Expel it from your being. You will be lighter in mind, body and soul. You have to learn to say no without feeling guilty. Setting boundaries is healthy. You need to learn to respect and take care of yourself.” – Unknown