My daughter currently goes to private school and I think there are a lot of benefits to private school but there’s a part of me that really feels wrong about paying for education. My granddad is a big proponent of education but he also very much believes that if a person wants to learn she will learn wherever she goes. In terms of education I do believe that and going private school was not our first choice.
My daughter has almost completed one week of school. With all the rushing around over the last week, making sure I had everything and trying out the school run in between work and then actually starting school, I haven’t had a chance to stop and think until today. The whole idea of her starting school still seems a bit surreal and I’ve been nostalgically looking through her baby photos and videos not wanting to believe she’s almost 5. She seems to have settled in well after the first few days of bawling her eyes out and saying she doesn’t want to go to school. Today, she still said she didn’t want to go but for the first time, there were no tears just lots of hugs and a promise from me to pick her up at 3. We did have to talk through this on the walk into school though. She asked me to pick her up at 2 but I had to explain that I couldn’t because school finishes at 3 so I will pick her up then. I feel happier that I can leave her without her being in tears.
I knew the school run would be long and tiring especially as I will be sitting in rush hour traffic but to be doing this for next 18 years or so is already filling me with dread. Since we didn’t get any of our catchment school, the school we are going to takes about 1 to 1.5 hours there and back which I will be doing twice a day FOREVER! I’m leaving early so that she gets to school on time but the journey back is full of traffic. Also, at the moment I’m walking her in and waiting for her to go in and stop crying and clinging to me. Hopefully once she settles in, I can cut out about 20 minutes but it is still a long trip. I’ve already started looking for houses near the school although we still haven’t decided what our long term plans are for moving houses and possibly schools.
We’ve already had homework and reading books which at the moment is fine and easy to do. I’m sure once we get into a routine everything will be all okay but at the moment I feel like I’m constantly running around, working and doing things til late into the night and then have to get up early to start the day and I miss sleep so much. Today, I had absolutely no motivation to do any work, mainly because I was tired but Wednesday is one of the only days where I get the whole day to myself – no kids, no husband so it should be a productive day. But I resisted it so much today and spent the day dreaming about not having to work for a living. I would watch day time TV while eating breakfast and lunch, go to a yoga class, maybe even have a nap, read a book and I would do a little bit of work if I got a bit bored. I’m dreading tomorrow when I will have to catch up on everything I avoided doing today.
Not really a motivational saying this week but just something to tie in with schools:
I went on a Reiki level 2 course and for some reason I was very nervous. I wasn’t that keen to go in the first place but then I thought why not. I’ve got nothing to lose. I tried what I learnt on my husband and he said exactly what was in the back of my mind. He said it was like voodoo dolls and obviously that it didn’t work on him. Tbh it does feel like that and I get so worried that if I think bad things I might hurt someone. So I think I will do the case studies to get my certificate and then just stick to the level one style of practice. It’s a little scary! I do like the meditative side to it though.
This week we’ve all been down with a tummy bug and we’re still trying to figure out what to do with my daughters school. She’s got an assessment for the local private school on Tuesday and then I’ll need to give a deposit to secure her place because apparently it is getting quite full. Not sure how much to believe that bit, but I do need a school for my daughter. And obviously I want a good school for her.
With the tummy bug, both my daughters have been at home. One week with them is more than enough especially when I’m trying to work too. I want to be back on holiday. Spending a week with them there wasn’t so bad. I wish my life was a constant holiday! Although, if it was, I think I would feel guilty for not working and eventually get bored.
It’s just been a busy week. One thing after another without a break.
Quote for the week:
‘Sometimes the best thing you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess. Just breathe, and have faith that everything will work out for the best.’ – Unknown