I’ve got 5 more classes left on my Bikram yoga pass and I’ve been fighting and fighting and fighting with myself, with what I want, with what I can do and how to fit everything in but I’ve come to the decision that this is the end. For now.
I took my first class in 2009 in Leicester with my husband and I have been an addict ever since. On our first class, we put our mats right next to the mirrors as we thought that was the back of the class! After getting used to the shock of the heat, I remember feeling at peace and being so calm with the first breathing exercise and then being able to continue with the rest of the class so well. I’ve had two breaks since 2009, when I had both my daughters. Before then, we had been trying for children but had been unsuccessful. However, within 3 months of starting Bikram yoga I became pregnant. Coincidence? Maybe? But I am convinced that there is some good in Bikram yoga that no other form of exercise I have done has.
This September, after doing yoga for the longest stint yet of 2 years, I’m going to have to take a big break when my oldest daughter starts school. Maybe if I was so dedicated I could find time but with the school runs, the early morning yoga is out and evening yoga depends a lot on work. After having my second daughter I suffered a lot from backaches and just general aches. The backaches still comes and goes but definitely feels better after Bikram yoga. The general aches have more or less disappeared. The peace I felt in my first classes is elusive but I do feel a lot calmer and happier after a class even if it’s for a short time.
Yoga in general has always been a big part of my life and I do intend to carry on with yoga at home. But for now and to all the Bikram yogis:
“That stress you’ve placed upon your shoulders is going to crush you. Get rid of it. You don’t need to be perfect. You don’t need to have it all together. You don’t need to please everyone. Place that heavy burden on the ground. Throw it out into the sea. Expel it from your being. You will be lighter in mind, body and soul. You have to learn to say no without feeling guilty. Setting boundaries is healthy. You need to learn to respect and take care of yourself.” – Unknown
I’ve started writing this in almost pitch black at 9.30 am as the eclipse takes over any natural form of light! I am interested in the eclipse but without the special eclipse glasses I’m too scared of it damaging my eyes so I’ve got the TV on in the background.
Starting to get into a bit of routine but its not perfect and while the girls are still small, I don’t think I ever will. I still don’t feel like I’m doing as much exercise as I would like to but I am fasting on Thursday which is, if nothing else, helping with my self control which sometimes spills over into the rest of the week and I’m not getting tempted to snack as much. Today I got up at 5.30 to do some yoga and it felt good and most days I’ve been naturally waking up between 5.30 to 6 so I’m thinking of making that into a bit of a routine.
I didn’t go to Bikram yoga over the weekend and I missed it so much. When I got back to class on Wednesday I felt like an addict, I couldn’t wait! At the moment I’m only going in once a week and the weekends if I’m free but with getting busy with work and changes in class timetable I guess I will have to be happy with once a week! I really love Bikram yoga and I really wish had more time to do it more often. I never want to stop going.
I mentioned I got my phone upgraded last week. The phone I got was Samsung note 4. I like the big screen and the big size in general and for everything except answering the phone it is brilliant. I just need to get used to have such a big phone on my ear. I don’t really use the note part as I have Evernote but I plan to download some kids films which should be useful in emergencies!
Anyway, a quote from my yoga (Mandy Ingber) DVD:
‘If I want to make a change in my body, it starts with a change in my mind’ or something like that.
It’s been a while since I blogged and I didn’t even manage to complete the blogging 101 course but I’ve decided that I’m going to try and blog every Friday mornings. I’ve got nothing new to say really nor have I got a theme for the Friday morning blogs but I am going to attempt to blog every Friday’s at least, even if it is a short post.
I’ll start off with an update. I’m still attempting to do juicing, not as religiously as I used to but I’ve got my favourites and I do those whenever I can. Although I would like to try some vegetable or green juices. I’ve recently acquired a desk in the corner of the kitchen which seems to take over the whole of the dining area – an area originally dedicated as a play area for the girls so I’m feeling a little guilty about that. I’m still not sure if I like the size of the desk, it feels massive!
I’m hoping to do the blogging 101 in the future some time this year and as they have it every month, hopefully, I will find a month I can carry on. The Bikram yoga timetable has changed a bit which has left me free on a Friday morning. I do plan to do some of my own exercise but I need to get myself into a routine first. I haven’t completely stopped Bikram Yoga but I am enjoying having the Friday morning free to myself. I think if I cultivate little habits, then eventually it will turn into a routine.
To end this blog, a random quote just because I want to!
‘ Have patience. All things are difficult before they become easy.’ Saadi
I’ve been blogging for a while but I’m not very consistent. With it being a new year, I’ve decided to start again and see if I can come up with a topic to blog about.
If you have seen other posts on this blog, I’m a mum, an accountant and then there’s a section which doesn’t fit in to those categories. With it being the new year, I’ve also decided that I want to do another million and one things.
So firstly, I’ve been going Bikram yoga for a while and I’ve decided that I want to learn all the I can about each of the 26 postures we do. Not necessarily be able to do them perfectly but learn why we do each one and is benefits.
Secondly, I’m reading a book about wine and it’s so interesting and it makes me want to learn about wine. I’ve not really got a plan for that except read the book and do some of the things it asks you to do.
Thirdly, eat healthily and cook, juice, exercise more.
Fourthly, spend more quality time with my daughters. Play with them, read, do exercise, go out and teach them stuff.
Finally, and the most important, is to keep on top of tax and accounts and get up to speed on that and as I’m working for myself, get more clients.
So, this seems to have just turned into a new years resolutions list and it’s a day late so not a good start but I’m going to keep going and hopefully find something good to talk about (well blog about!).